Cussing

'CUSSING'
A new word I've learn while reading the newspaper.
Coincidently, I'm having the feeling to do exactly wat the letter means.
2night I've been moved to a zone where I totally could keep swear and curse.
I've been scolding all kinds of word.
Feeling wat's wrong,
Y I even care?
I am totally angry of what that have been happening recently.
What I've done?
I've done a lot, mayb not everything but I really did take effort.
Y she scold me so much?
I really did study, did do my homework.
Y she keep have sour face?
Is it there's so many dissatisfaction?
What I've done wrong or wat I din do?
Wat?
Sober or dumb?
Patience or guilty?
Right or wrong?
No answer...

Helpless.

2009...
I start of this year with bad news and unlucky things keep happen 2 me.
Even it's only the 3rd month but i've face a lot of problems and troubles.
Such as grandma's absence, laptop down, bluetooth headset spoil, timetable pack, arguments then most important, ur life's breakdown.
I really wanna help u...
But I dun know how. Ur friendship with ur friends are like those I nvr have faced.
I dun know how to help u, how to get them to be good to u, to b just like b4.
I only know tat I should be there for you whenever u need me but from tonight, I know i've fail.
I dun know how to handle stuff like these.
I felt like this is the 1st time i'm so committed in one's life.
This is like i'm so new in this thing.
From a to z, mon till sun. I'm really new.
I know the situation hurts u a lot but I dun know how to help u.
And things get worse when not only I cant help but I also cant offer u much console.
I've failed...
Failed in improving,
Failed in the role,
Failed to step up to this responsibility.
For better o worse, I only know tat i'll wait.