Busy month

Busy with assignments...
This sem has the worst arrangement.
5 days of classes per week.
5 assignments to be due.
2 research papers.
Sob sob...

I need help.
I need attention.
Ha ha...
Sounds problematic.
Damn...
How lar???

Too much 2 handle

As a libran, I always wanted balance.
At least the type that benefits myself more.
But it is the fact that ntg is perfect.
Now I've only made myself in more trouble and responsibility.
I've too much to be handle by only myself.
Studies, family, relationship.
From most of them in my family, it seems to them that i'm trouble free.
Most of the time I'm just given more and more responsibility.
These responsibility is more than I've ask.
Not only that, but I do look like an idiot running all the errands.
It's always not an easy job when it comes to running my family.
Not that it's a lot of work, but lots of feedback.
Sometimes, even studies is easier than staying at home.
Father is the source of financial who seldom spend time or even effort to look at wat's happening in the house.
Mother who used to be the caretaker is now often busy with her own plans.
Brother is longer the small little bro that I used to have.
He used to be obedient, quiet and caring.
Somehow missed the time that my grandpa is around.
He understands me, help me when I got into trouble, makes me happy when i'm sad.
When we grow, our parents just provide the material needs but had neglected the main thing in a family. The care, attention, and love is neglected.
Sometimes extra effort taken is not appreciated.
Extra time given in helping is wasted.
Really wonders y I trap myself in managing a family which brings no improvement.
Just like y I continue running behind to push those left behind and y not just run ahead when I could & just abandon those behind.
Y work hard when I just end up being treat the same?
Y make myself into so much trouble?
Y?

Holidays over, Class start

Now my holiday is over lor. Start short sem.
This time i've registered for 3 subject.
Wanna take more so that next time could just skip
short sem n enjoy the 3months holiday. Ha ha...
Lazy ma.
During the holiday, I din go much places.
Just went genting with friends.
Then went Tenji with high school's friend.
Ehm...
Other than these I also went 1u but I think nothing
more de.
Sobs sobs...
Since some1 say photo better than words then I
decided to add some photos.

Holiday life again.

This time my holiday got more boring than usual even I've a car and could drive anywhere I want.
U need to work, so v could like last time go shopping everyday, watch movie, play The Sims.
It felt quite alone during holiday.
I trying to find for jobs but dun seems any interest me o suits me.
Sob sob....

The 1st weekend of my holiday I went genting....
Because of some1....
Ha ha....

After that, it's like I'm home nearly everyday.
Afternoon fetch my bro, fetch my bro to tuition, fetch my bro to aeon.
It seems like he's on holiday more than me.
He's much filled.
Then I need to hang clothes, laundry, cook rice, most important, clean my room.

It's officially over.

It's officially over.



To many of u, this statement is not wat's on ur mind.

I'm refering to my exam for this sem.
Not only the exam is over. But my 1st year for degree also over de.
I'm now moving forward for my Year 2.

So now my holiday start. At 1st like got a lot of things to do.
But now also like nothing much to do.
Exam over, but senior already say can start study for next sem.
Haih...

For now, need to pack de. 2morrow gonna go genting.
Hope can relax and enjoy this holiday.
Anyway, if any of u got job vacancy. Let me know.
Ha ha...

Really busy ma.

Recently my life really suddenly gets more of to cope with than previous.
Especially in my studies. Really got a lot work ah.
This makes me realise that I dun really suit studying with half of my final depending on coursework.
4 out of 4 are 50% coursework. Bulls eye.
Great.
Sorry for late posting and seldom blogging.
My pc been in n out the workshop.

Good news is pc fair coming.
Can go shopping for new toys again.

Bad news is my timetable is getting more and more pack.
Keep on having extra class, extra time for lab, for duty.
Then I even dun have much time for my beloved.
Sorry...

Time management really give me a headache.

Then with coursemate keep asking me to join dodgeball.
Really hard to decide.
Luckily mom n beloved also dun allow.
They say y play a stupid game which allow balls to hit u.
Ha ha ha...
Jing, sorry.
Cant help u de.

Anyway, final's coming.
Dateline even nearer.
So it might need to take a while b4 my next post.

Cussing

'CUSSING'
A new word I've learn while reading the newspaper.
Coincidently, I'm having the feeling to do exactly wat the letter means.
2night I've been moved to a zone where I totally could keep swear and curse.
I've been scolding all kinds of word.
Feeling wat's wrong,
Y I even care?
I am totally angry of what that have been happening recently.
What I've done?
I've done a lot, mayb not everything but I really did take effort.
Y she scold me so much?
I really did study, did do my homework.
Y she keep have sour face?
Is it there's so many dissatisfaction?
What I've done wrong or wat I din do?
Wat?
Sober or dumb?
Patience or guilty?
Right or wrong?
No answer...

Helpless.

2009...
I start of this year with bad news and unlucky things keep happen 2 me.
Even it's only the 3rd month but i've face a lot of problems and troubles.
Such as grandma's absence, laptop down, bluetooth headset spoil, timetable pack, arguments then most important, ur life's breakdown.
I really wanna help u...
But I dun know how. Ur friendship with ur friends are like those I nvr have faced.
I dun know how to help u, how to get them to be good to u, to b just like b4.
I only know tat I should be there for you whenever u need me but from tonight, I know i've fail.
I dun know how to handle stuff like these.
I felt like this is the 1st time i'm so committed in one's life.
This is like i'm so new in this thing.
From a to z, mon till sun. I'm really new.
I know the situation hurts u a lot but I dun know how to help u.
And things get worse when not only I cant help but I also cant offer u much console.
I've failed...
Failed in improving,
Failed in the role,
Failed to step up to this responsibility.
For better o worse, I only know tat i'll wait.

My 1st time

This is my 1st time typing n posting my blog using a mobile phone. INTERESTING. Ha ha... Again, i'm a small kid who is excited with a new toy. Unfortunately, this toy dun belongs 2 me. As time passes, the advancement in technology had brought us very far from the stone age. Butoh everything has it's pro n con. Sad sad... Updating my blog with a palm size device isn't tat easy n fun. Quite troublesome. Got 2 go. Anyway, thanks for reading.

Quite some time

It's a new year....
Ha ha ha...
Like quite far away from the new year celebration.
This year start quite bad.
Within the few months in the end of 08 till now, my life been busy.
This year starts with exam then suddenly grandma left us.
It's been quite suffering for her. Finally it end. I din get to c her for the last time. She was in hospital then. Even those who rush to the hospital also were too late.
Now....
My life is almost like housewife de.
As i'm on holiday so need to do those cooking(only rice), cleaning and etc.
But actually quite free de.
Most stuff din went well.
A bit frustrated.
Somehow hate holiday but also dun like college life.
Slacker is a word i like to describe myself.
Just not motivated and lost my direction.
Boring is the word i use to describe my cny.
Height is the question i'll ask bout my freedom.