Yet another new chapter

College is starting again.
A new chapter, a new semester.
First time returning 2 college after the last exam.
The first time I actually feel the fear of going back.
Last exam was terrible.
In fact, I think the fear actually caused by new semester=results soon.
Damn scary.
This year I might be losing more than tyres.

Burden...
Responsibility...

Where actually does pressure comes from???
Within oneself?
Family?
I do wonder.

U used to tell me tat I actually worry too much and deliberately following instructions given.
U say I should voice out when feel unwilling but I dun dare.
I used to tell u tat discussion is important.
But I failed.

I failed to voice unwillingness.
I failed to accept the reasons given.
I failed to accept changes.
I failed to cope with time.

Hope that this new sem will be better for the sake of myself.
Need to keep mind open b4 jeopardizing my own future.

Special request

My dear friend, Yean Yeon had requested me to actually blog about things which are more happy in my blog. Ok ok.
I'll go step by step.
First, a new year a new start.
Actually I got new year present on the first day itself.
Dun know whether it's a happy news o just another emo news.
I got 4 new tyres with 4 new rims.
Happy cause finally I change something in my car.
Not so happy cause it's actually replace cause 3 out of 4 tyres were stolen.
Sure I got some lecture now and then from parents.
But sure hope this mark a new beginning to my life.

Hey, anyway my exam coming soon but still got lots to do cause i've been busy being rebellious as counter reaction to my bro's action,
Lame....
My so called rebellious action need to stop de as need to start study.

Yet, hope tat's more gathering with friends, long lost friends.
Oh ya, another good news.
I actually got in contact with some of my NS's friends.
It's been almost few years de.
Gtg.
PS. Yean Yeon rmb to feedback oh.

Busy month

Busy with assignments...
This sem has the worst arrangement.
5 days of classes per week.
5 assignments to be due.
2 research papers.
Sob sob...

I need help.
I need attention.
Ha ha...
Sounds problematic.
Damn...
How lar???

Too much 2 handle

As a libran, I always wanted balance.
At least the type that benefits myself more.
But it is the fact that ntg is perfect.
Now I've only made myself in more trouble and responsibility.
I've too much to be handle by only myself.
Studies, family, relationship.
From most of them in my family, it seems to them that i'm trouble free.
Most of the time I'm just given more and more responsibility.
These responsibility is more than I've ask.
Not only that, but I do look like an idiot running all the errands.
It's always not an easy job when it comes to running my family.
Not that it's a lot of work, but lots of feedback.
Sometimes, even studies is easier than staying at home.
Father is the source of financial who seldom spend time or even effort to look at wat's happening in the house.
Mother who used to be the caretaker is now often busy with her own plans.
Brother is longer the small little bro that I used to have.
He used to be obedient, quiet and caring.
Somehow missed the time that my grandpa is around.
He understands me, help me when I got into trouble, makes me happy when i'm sad.
When we grow, our parents just provide the material needs but had neglected the main thing in a family. The care, attention, and love is neglected.
Sometimes extra effort taken is not appreciated.
Extra time given in helping is wasted.
Really wonders y I trap myself in managing a family which brings no improvement.
Just like y I continue running behind to push those left behind and y not just run ahead when I could & just abandon those behind.
Y work hard when I just end up being treat the same?
Y make myself into so much trouble?
Y?

Holidays over, Class start

Now my holiday is over lor. Start short sem.
This time i've registered for 3 subject.
Wanna take more so that next time could just skip
short sem n enjoy the 3months holiday. Ha ha...
Lazy ma.
During the holiday, I din go much places.
Just went genting with friends.
Then went Tenji with high school's friend.
Ehm...
Other than these I also went 1u but I think nothing
more de.
Sobs sobs...
Since some1 say photo better than words then I
decided to add some photos.